hi. yeah i know i missed out a lot of updates here but life is really busy now. ive started my internship and that company is giving real great learning opportunity to newbies like me. yes, it is tough but it really provides assistance down the road to becoming a programmer.
i start my work on Monday last week, which i reluctantly attended to the company because it is far from campus and i need to wake up extra early for that. now, dont you think my internship is the same as the others, mostly others, i mean. first day of work and i feel like crying home to mama.
this is the case. most companies in my area as a programmers, as far as i know among my coursemates, they did not torture trainees at the first day of work. they maybe asked the newcomers to download, install and play with the software programs, which the companies use mainly when they do their work. some were asked to watch tutorial videos and those were all the things to be done at the first week. mine, at the first freaking day, they gave me a coding of the company programs, was asked to study on my own and to code straight away. wtf y'all know we learn shits in university. more to come, theres a test on Friday. evaluation test, attended by all the ppl in a meeting room and you gotta present your system, coded on your own.
i was stressed. if you know me well, i never really got bothered by anything happened around me. but this time this is the serious shit. i was freaking stressed and wasnt in good mood for a few days at the beginning. my boyfie freaked out seeing me acting so bizzare-ly. i couldnt produce any shit. not a phrase of coding. i was unhappy. very very unhappy. it took me frigging 3 days to get passed over the feelings that i suck. to screw all the stress back to hell hole. im back to a see-and-forget girl again.
seniors are all good. they warned me about the evaluation wont be easy and there hadnt been anyone whos gotten above 50 marks, when they saw me showing poker face about them telling me the evaluation things.
i was really slow and it took me days to finally figure out a little out of a lump. those days i used to complete a single online form, i think i would die. and there came the evaluation day. the topic given was a system to sell phones. i started to code the system on 9am until 5pm, times up. wtf if Facebook can be produced in those 8 hours. i completed the very basic things, had my ideas on the system and i was ready to go. surprisingly, i got 30 marks averagely. marked by 6 ppl, ranged between 20-40. i was satisfied. they are all angels lol.
two weeks passed, and one conclusion. now Fridays really feel different to me now. Friday=Flyday.
i wont have so much time here anymore, since i need to balance my time out between work, church, sports and my own space. you wont see me here often, i guess, but ill try my best. after all, i need some rest sometimes.
today is Saturday. ill see you again.
21092013
在家没事做咯
在家无所事事，等着时间上机场接机，上网就成了我打发时间的活动。看看漫画，看看youtube，也看了很多很多照片。我特别喜欢看漂亮的东西，废话啦，大家都喜欢，但是我觉得我会比别人喜欢多一些。没事做的时候会上网看看吊饰，耳环，衣服，鞋子，男子，女子，我都喜欢，特别是看美女。Lol。
我也想其他人一样，希望自己可以漂亮些，我不obsessed，但是多多少少都会希望嘛。追根究底，我觉得都是因为我真的太过懒惰了。就是因为懒，所以没有很大的推动力。天底下没有不漂亮的女子，只有懒惰的女子，这句话我举手举脚赞成。我天生并没有很漂亮，虽然说不上是丑，但是就是没有让人眼前一亮的魅力。但是我懒惰，平时我完全不做打理，只是洗洗脸，涂涂moisturiser。甚至连上个妆，都只是擦擦粉液，画画眉毛，画出来都还是个猪样。我的天啊，我真是够懒的！有时在街上走着走着，看到很多漂亮的女子，我就对自己说，该收拾收拾自己了，下次至少画个眉毛吧！但是，我的下次都不知道是几时，哈哈。有时却又觉得，为什么一定要这样呢？人生短短几十年，青春更为短暂，我何必为了那几年而劳师动众呢？最终大家都一样，臭皮囊一个，死了过后谁会记得你以前有多漂亮？一下又觉得不打理打理好像又对不起自己，对不起会看我邋遢样子的大家。女子就应该对自己负责。我疯了我疯了。
另外就是害怕。一下想留长发，但是觉得留长发像女鬼，我又不会花时间去打理头发；一下想剪个刘海，又是不打理，也怕自己脸蛋不适合，唉，就因为我没有漂亮的脸蛋；一下又想改变一下，来个中分，但是又觉得不好看，也不习惯。天啊，我这个人怎么那么麻烦啊！
其实一切一切只是我对自己懒惰的藉口。青春有一天一样会逝去，用金钱锁住青春又有何不对？只要量力而为。是时候该好好整理自己了。也许太迟了一点，我都22了，但是懒惰不可以再是个藉口。众卿家有何对策？打完这篇后，马上拿起电话约时间洗脸，哈哈。
2013年，我要我内在外在都更上一层楼！
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tD +
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t2 + 2D.Mt + | M |2 – r2 =
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now where the hell is the D2??
am i missing something somewhere?
where the hell is my DD?! oh gosh, i cant proceed with my collision detection without you!
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the mood is quite high now. ive been spending the whole day trying to figure out how to work web programming with database, (except for the time to blog the previous post, credit to Simone Heng Poh Hock and Joyleafyee Lee). yeah no thanks to both lecturers. struggling alone while the other girl from my team was having the time of her life sleeping for the whole afternoon. fml.
BUT, finally its done! ive made some minor mistakes and i cant believe i actually made those mistakes. ill be doomed. careless is my pride heh?
life is getting so much busier than before. December is the most epic month of whole semester when what all of your lecturers want is only course project. submission at the same time. im heels over head. it seems like homework assignments projects will never stop coming. final comes after that. and all of my papers are crumpled in one week time. berturut-turut man! how am i going to survive that again. study plan seems impossible to a person like me too wooohooooo.
christmas is coming too. ive planned to reserve the time for myself alone.
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今天有一点非常无奈。所以说，有时候真的是要过滤你可以在面子书上分享的东西。因为你不知道随时都会有比你想像力更丰富的人，比你幼稚的人，可以看到，对号入座。他们又大多数是神经质的。
今天两个朋友们的男朋友，就A跟B吧。大打出手。理由就不说了。刚刚考完试就又给我丢个炸弹来让我忙。我知道他们一定会打起来，所以在情况还在控制下溜进了厕所。从厕所出来就看到他们已经是站着的了，拳头紧握，我就假假打电话给祈毅，装忙，因为我不想再被卷进任何不关我事的事情。你说你无辜，只是他们要求你帮忙，到了最后，谁还会记得你只是来帮忙？当然也要你负你本不应当负的责任，外人也看不请，然后，你就无缘无故也变成了罪人，最大的罪人。但是，好死不死还是给他们看到我，抓来当法官，我又不能说不行。其他的女子朋友们都静静的，平时的大声去了哪里了？唉！匆匆忙忙挂了电话就开始听他们说他们各自的道理。A打算就这么算了，拿起他的电单车头盔就想离开，但是B就觉得他要拿头盔打架，他也拿起他的。就这么打起来了。我气到他们当我没道就一手分开他们，一手一人一掌。在场的8个人吓到，我平时是很温柔的，呵呵。说来说去，谁对谁错也分不清。
不过我很欣赏B。他虽然没有什么大错，他还是愿意道歉，真是个EQ满分的人。相反的，A就只会骂臭话，而且骂来骂去只有那几句，连我都懂得比他多。(oopss) 他让我本来对他没有什么好感的情况下，又更鄙视他了。
事情总算暂时告一段落后，B安慰他吓到的女朋友，真的是让我又打从心底敬佩他。平时大家都混在一起酸来酸去，都不觉得他和别的男子有差别。经过这次，让我很敬佩他。
这也是在这么久以来羡慕他的女朋友，有一个这么样的男朋友。
而A，这样一件小小的事情都能够让他闹到天翻地覆，在faculty打架，A说他幼稚真的是实至名归。
一件事情，看到的却是两种处理态度与方法。两个人天差地远，一个让我更欣赏，一个让我更鄙视。言行举止说明了一切，不是能够装出来的。你臭话骂得天花乱坠就代表你很大力吗？让人尊敬的，往往都是先说道歉的那个。
题外话：离开faculty后，我感受到了混在一起的coursemate们热情以及敬畏的眼光。喂，我会吃了你们meh？ zzz
coincidence
i have a really nice photo to cheer up your bad day. i was testing on the secondary camera last night and my face was twisted because i just did something to my teeth right before bed. i accidentally took the shot and i LOL-ed for the whole night, even until the next morning. super super super ugly photo. and im about to share the photo with you, in case you have had the worst day and need some laughing.
but, WARNING! DO NOT SCROLL DOWN IF YOUR HEART IS NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR THIS! im serious.
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school has started for about 3 weeks already and finally i have time to sit down for a proper update.
no, actually i dont have time. i have to do this in the middle of the night. i have assignments piled on my schedule.
a report of being a system analyst, 8 slides on database, a report again on human computer interaction where i need to screen record my progress, a big project on database and system analysis, another project for interaction course. yeah i know, you dont know what am i talking about. neither do i.
i just know that im stuck in my room every minutes besides the time that i need to spend in faculty, doing assignments.
i should just get married, be a young mother and skip this process of chasing-after-assignments life.
no, im just joking. ha-ha.
i barely even have time for meals. im often in hunger, and that makes me really aggressive these days.
went for steamboat with juniors, counted as an unofficial meeting with juniors.
i was reluctant to go but the president, jee cheng, demanded kindly asked us to be present.
my direct junior squeaked to another junior about me. she thinks that im fierce and that is why, she doesnt dare to contact me, even until now.
shit, ought to smile more from now on.
i need time for a rest. i dont want to go to bed everyday as late as 2am. i want to have a relaxing university life.
reality cut my wish hard when programming expert program was announced to have to start running from this week.
i have 4 mentees under me, each of them have to do like, 15 programming questions.
i have to complete my 15 too.
you do the calculation, how many programming codes do i need to compile? wtf
i hate being a mentor. i wanna resign but the resignation was rejected by my lecturer. she intends even to resign herself from her current post. was rejected. i know how does she feel.
bigger power comes with bigger responsibility.
but i just wanna run.
kayak with 1st years on 8th october, tracking with coursemates on 15. compulsory.
i swear i would burn this department down. get lost with your compulsory.
dont talk to me. i hate you all.
life is hard. im trying to make it better. sigh.
going to bed now, tata.
dont wait for me, i dont know when i will get another update up again. BOOOOOO.
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i have been writing really long posts recently, havent i? i dont think anybody finish reading all of them. i dont care anyway, im getting a few of readers only. really few, but really precious. that is a thing to feel relieved about. why? no idea. goddamnit im funny. im screwed! for being really screwed.
being a lunatic doesnt buy me meals. haha oops. the end.
i should have made this post a little more special. its my 670th post.
oh yeah, this means party!
kthxbye.
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Pottermore is a website for the extended edition of harry potter series. i had successfully placed the quill at the right place on the first day since Pottermore was opened minorly. my username is KnightCauldron31 (we dont get to choose the username, the website assigned to us a few and then we choose among. i like this username anyway. its kinda cool). the website has taken me into consideration as one of the early entries before the site is opened for everyone in october. after the registration, i waited for like one hour before the confirmation email came. it did and heres the proof.
i like the stories very much and i personally am really impressed by how strong and rigid the influence ever since its gone public 13 years ago. never has a book made history never a history, so far as i know. some came out, got popular, but the light faded after a year or two. but not harry potter series, the magical one. every kid, every grown-up knows about the series, whether they came across to it, or not. for 10 whole years, at least. the series missed no one. J.K.Rowling, once again, threw another trend when she started Pottermore. you dont know how crazy and jammed tumblr was when Pottermore was opened for the first day. everybody was like asking around if anybody had got the confirmation email. i actually grew aggressive when the email was nowhere to be spotted in my gmail for the first 30 minutes. lol. and after receiving the confirmation email, i waited for welcoming email for daysssssssss. waiting for the pottermore welcoming email feels like youre waiting for an entry letter to Hogwarts. lol again.
harry potter is not just a fad, its a trend.
and i wonder how long it will last again until people start to feel boring.
maybe it never will?
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after viewing rachel's blog i wish i can take photos with my boyfriend too.
i have never done that before. #damnit
now, who can be the pity one?
xx xxxx, perhaps?
in your dream, bitch. HAHHAHAHAHAHHA
im bored. #cansomebodyaskmeouttonight
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im so bored at shop that i think i can blog for more than one post every single day. #boredbutistillliketobeonholiday
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i dont know what the fuck should i do now.
im having this shitty graphic mathematics tomorrow in the morning but why am i here?
because i dont have the book to study.
what a student, dont even own the textbook for class.
my friends are all bertungkus lumus studying now, but ive just come back to my own room.
playing all the creeps game in ipod.
defensing your babies from being taken away by all those monsters.
im just too bored.
and i feel sorry if i go to bed this early while all my friends are fighting hard.
zzz.
ive a better plan. i hope i can develop a better hobby.
going to bed this early, anyway.
ciao.
*signing out*
the game : creeps!♛
hey bastards and bitches, long time no see! :D i was really busy throughout the time when its getting closer to final. i mean, the period of time before study week. assignments and presentations started to pile on my timeline, and they were chasing me to hell.
ive still got 2 major assignments on hold, the maths+programming coding assignments and web programming.
im a major complainer right? teehee but seriously, fuck the former assignment.
what the hell do yo expect me to come out with a graph using programming and opengl skill while you taught shyts only in class?
assigned us as liars too. who the hell gives a damn on you,
im not born to kiss your ass skank.
oh, i mean my maths lecturer.
despite that i sacrificed much of my sleeping time on it.
if you know me rather well, sleep is the only thing on this earth that i can sacrifice the least. i slept only after 2am every night. hardcore? nah, really for the next news.
i slept at 5am on friday morning and gotta get my ass up on 9am to go to faculty for the mentor meeting.
i was totally out of mood for church choir that night.
all i ever wanted at that moment was my comfy my-smell bed.
and on saturday night, i was really surprised that i felt sleepy as early as 8pm and went to bed at about 9pm. woke up only at 12 something on sunday morning.
hey wow! hours just passed in sleep zzz i was really knocked out.
im not sick, im just worn out.
i figured the fatigue on saturday, maybe its because i caught in rain that afternoon. hmm i should get my stamina hotter.
and when i finally am awake and settled down deciding to have a productive day, i dont know what to study for my final. funny? screw you cis.
its so grotesque, my life before going home.
so what did i do? dean-ing until the night falls?
perhaps.
my roommate is back to her home. whats left is the empty heart.
ive started to think if shes here on saturday night, i wouldnt have slept that early and woke up so late on sunday morning.
but, whateva, like shes going to stay in her room at nights.
for the record, she goes on dating every night /.\
nah, im not lonely but find myself in my little space of heaven.
i do everything i want, i eat i blurp i swear i fart, just as what and when i want.
HAHHAHAHAH. lifes great isnt it?
i feel like sleeping again, lovely me.
but no, im not going to bed this early and be terrified finding myself waking up at 11am on monday morning. :|
i camwhored a little and since there is no related photos to be shared on this post, im gonna hit the crowd with some of the camwhore photosssssss. :D
holy, im so bitchy.i love myself without specs more, but sometimes im just so lazy having to go to toilet so often to get contact lens off and on, on and off.
so, i learn to love myself with specs too.
in short, i just love i, me, myself.
hooray? HOORAY!
i hope my short-sightedness gets less and im working on it.
improved a little bit, aza bitch!
right, ill stop here. again, until next time :)
p/s : im not dead. im still kicking and rather insouciant. watch me i may bite. :p
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damn the yellow eyes demon! ima shoot you with the colt one day. kill the frigging cross road demon too! shes sucking blood! dont you dare to touch my babe you son of the bitch!
dean, get sammy back. ruby is hell. john and angels dont save your life for nothing, babe boy.
oops, indulge in movie series a little too much. :p
