忘记

忘记一个人，并非不再想起，而是偶尔想起，心中却不再有波澜。
真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。（佚名）

风吹起的时候，风停止的时候。

breakdown?

i think ppl suck at handling emotions these days.
whenever i switch from blogs to blogs these days, they are all complaining about tests or assignments or projects. maybe its because its this period right now, you have to hand up every work before holiday.
what i hate the most is, instead of thinking of ways to complete the work, they procrastinate everywhere on social sites, complaining and whining about others. lecturers, team mates, atm, with foul words, especially.
sometimes i do whine too, but ill get pass it sooner or later.
because in my mind, the answers will eventually float out of nowhere whenever its getting nearer to the deadline.
either i start working or my dear coursemates will kindly share their solutions.
i live with that for 3 years now, and if you ask me whats the toughest moment fighting with work, ill tell you i dont remember any of them at all. seriously, i dont.
i dont even know what assignment did i complete before mid-semester break.
there was this one time that my teammate bombarded me with the news that i need to complete 15 pages GUI report, and that was only 3 hours before the deadline and we had class the whole day.
my friend, sitting beside me during class watching me doing all the work, she said she could never be like me, to do the sudden-fall-from-sky work without whining. she would curse and scold everyone she saw that day.
im forgetful if im not constantly reminded of. sometimes it really brings chaos, but sometimes im glad that i am forgetful. like you fucked me up yesterday, i will totally forget about that tomorrow.
ppl have stress, i know. and i believe that, we can handle it.

k lah, i really need to start studying for tomorrow subject. bye teehee

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what do you think about this photo?
i think the heat news now is that the sulu army has invaded sabah, trying to claim their territory.
im not a politician, but i reckon most of us know about the dirty little secret of BN.
but whats happening here is a war, and i cant believe that some can make this into a political issue.
we are talking about a war here and you are there busy capturing pictures of the army taking Air Asia flights?
i even read that there are some morons saying that they dont need Sabah.
people are living too comfortably here. life is too easy.
if you have extra time, i suggest you to pray for Sabah.

anyway, i cant control what ppl think too so lets focus back to my assignment.
from the codes below, please develop a program to extract the information of an image.

天啊! IMAGE PROCESSING!

善变

说女子善变还真是不错的。

少女时期，喜欢的是高富帅型的男子。
长大一些些，喜欢的是疼爱自己，会百般呵护自己的男子。
再长大一些些，喜欢的是成熟稳重，充满野心，充满冲劲的男子。
生过孩子后，喜欢一下班就回家，不会想要应酬，顾家居家的男子。
到了老年，依然深深吸引自己的，会是会和自己牵手慢慢散步的老头子。

女子的善变，善变的女子。

在家没事做咯

在家无所事事，等着时间上机场接机，上网就成了我打发时间的活动。看看漫画，看看youtube，也看了很多很多照片。我特别喜欢看漂亮的东西，废话啦，大家都喜欢，但是我觉得我会比别人喜欢多一些。没事做的时候会上网看看吊饰，耳环，衣服，鞋子，男子，女子，我都喜欢，特别是看美女。Lol。
我也想其他人一样，希望自己可以漂亮些，我不obsessed，但是多多少少都会希望嘛。追根究底，我觉得都是因为我真的太过懒惰了。就是因为懒，所以没有很大的推动力。天底下没有不漂亮的女子，只有懒惰的女子，这句话我举手举脚赞成。我天生并没有很漂亮，虽然说不上是丑，但是就是没有让人眼前一亮的魅力。但是我懒惰，平时我完全不做打理，只是洗洗脸，涂涂moisturiser。甚至连上个妆，都只是擦擦粉液，画画眉毛，画出来都还是个猪样。我的天啊，我真是够懒的！有时在街上走着走着，看到很多漂亮的女子，我就对自己说，该收拾收拾自己了，下次至少画个眉毛吧！但是，我的下次都不知道是几时，哈哈。有时却又觉得，为什么一定要这样呢？人生短短几十年，青春更为短暂，我何必为了那几年而劳师动众呢？最终大家都一样，臭皮囊一个，死了过后谁会记得你以前有多漂亮？一下又觉得不打理打理好像又对不起自己，对不起会看我邋遢样子的大家。女子就应该对自己负责。我疯了我疯了。
另外就是害怕。一下想留长发，但是觉得留长发像女鬼，我又不会花时间去打理头发；一下想剪个刘海，又是不打理，也怕自己脸蛋不适合，唉，就因为我没有漂亮的脸蛋；一下又想改变一下，来个中分，但是又觉得不好看，也不习惯。天啊，我这个人怎么那么麻烦啊！
其实一切一切只是我对自己懒惰的藉口。青春有一天一样会逝去，用金钱锁住青春又有何不对？只要量力而为。是时候该好好整理自己了。也许太迟了一点，我都22了，但是懒惰不可以再是个藉口。众卿家有何对策？打完这篇后，马上拿起电话约时间洗脸，哈哈。
2013年，我要我内在外在都更上一层楼！

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心情真的不是那么好
以为昨天是因为头疼所以特别烦躁
今天已经完全康复 反复思考了一天 为什么
也没有原因 只想一直都一个人
晚上教会朋友邀请 到他们家 中秋晚餐 我好想拒绝
连男人找我 我都想拒绝
真的只想一个人
一个人睡觉 一个人用餐  一个人唱歌 一个人写日记
此时此刻 好想一直都一个人
荷尔蒙吧 就那样吧

路边的野花

今天早上去上课时看到的 TEEHEE

有很多事情想不通

也轮不到我管

但是 如果我每个周末都能回家

我是绝对不会为了一个人的一通电话 为了和一个人的一顿晚餐 而选择周末不回家的

路边的野花 你不要采～

deng den den deng deng den den den!

LOL

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despite of my previous post, i feel stressful lately.
if your guess is about my academic performance, you should really talk to me more.
that does not really bother me as much, which i think its somehow a blessing. :)
stressed about quite a lot of things.
blatant facts, things to work on, overwhelming burst of emotions.
those piece of shits.
anyone? :(

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wanna try curly hair all of the sudden.
what do you think? :)

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so, yeah, maybe ill give a try for fringe. i have not fancied fringe enough since i came of age 16, but i think i ought to make some changes to my appearance. "hair does tonnes of changes," quoted from jun. for that i think i will give a freaking try on my hair. or, maybe not? who knows =| its still undecided. i dont wanna regret. anyone any comment?
ah yes, im gonna update about a day help in the handicapped center i participated in last saturday. wait till im free enough for that. stay tuned. xoxo

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现在的我才知道我做了很多让她失望的事。原来男友的约定对女友来说是非常期待的。可是我却放她很多飞机。原来我错了。我会记住。然后把它学起来。不要再让她失望了 [quoted from ricky pao, 2010]

he finally understood. took you so long huh!
why cant you see it too?


update: at the second thought, maybe you do.