i took two days leave in a row lol no intern ever dare to act as me, leave leave leave again! but im forced to, a small part of me actually wish to stay in the office, at least in air conditioned room, not this freaking burning heat hostel room.
WARNING! this is a very long and non picturesque post. leave it until another day if youre rushing for something else.
on Tuesday, i applied for the leave about a week ago. i got a hospital appointment arranged for the day. fyi, i have this kind of sickness, suspected tuberculosis, which made my weight dropped from 45-46kg to 39-40kg in a month. yes, a month. i coughed for over 2 months, bits by bits until i coughed whenever i moved, even a small gesture. its dry cough, anyway, i did not produce any phlegm.
i did not care much because i had never ever had anything as serious sickness on me before. minor flu or coughing, yes, but major ones, no. it got serious when i had high fever almost every night for about a week plus, and one night i hit 40+ degree temperature, my boyfie decided to get me hospitalized. 40+ degree, i freaked the hell out of the doctors.
however, i wasnt diagnose as TB patient at the first place. i was treated as pneumonia patient. i got water in my lungs. i heard that it was serious, much much much water at my left lung. so i stayed in the hospital for a week. every day, i needed to be injected with antibiotics via my veins on both my hands. the pain was excruciating. i couldnt even describe the pain. luckily i said no to my parents when they called and said wanna come to JB for me. their hearts were gonna break a mile like my boyfie did when they saw my facial expression when i was injected with the antibiotics. i was injected via my left hand at the beginning but my veins got swollen red very seriously after a few injection so the doctor suggested right hand then.
and that was the first time ever, i needed someone to bathe me lol. Ivy bathed me, she had seen my big fat buttocks, wo jia bu chu qu le LOL.
i was diagnosed as pneumonia patient for a month, eaten the oral antibiotics for a month after i was discharged in April. i constantly revisited hospital in two weeks or a month or so, to follow up on my chest treatment. i was suspected to have TB negative on May 7th, the day i started my first oral medication. why did i say suspect? because actually until today, the doctors cannot be 100% sure that i have this virus in me, because unlike the other TB patients, i did not produce any phlegm, even i was given the gas to help me extracting phlegm from lungs. i did not cough red. i did not have night sweat. i ate considerable well. what i had were weight drop and fatigue.
i couldnt actually do anything too, i had to start the treatment. so i did. i paid private medical center for more information, and they told me the same. my medication treatment is troublesome. i cant bring home the medicine, i have to attend to the hospital or clinic to swallow the pills in front of a medical agent and get my medical book signed. every day. so troublesome for me, i had to watch close the time for pills because if i miss the time, my body will produce an antibiotics to fight against the pills i consume.
this situation continued for approximately 8 months, until yesterday.
*DRUM ROLLSSSSS* im finally free from the treatment! *applause applause*
*applause continues* lol the virus were all gone. i am so clean now. yeah, though i still have a little bit of water in my left lung. situation is fine and that doctor congratulated me lololol. this is the best news in December.
so that was yesterday i was in heaven for the news. today, i dropped back to earth. i didnt pay for the extra hostel fee and i couldnt register my subjects for my final semester. i realized that last night, and i had to call many ppl for this issue damn.
things happened like this. i was debited with 1418 MYR last semester initially for all the fees. CIMB transacted the 1418 MYR successfully as always. however when i tried to log in to the register subject website, i was told that i couldnt proceed because i got unsettled payment. i was so shocked because i never knew that i was in debt with the campus. i checked with all my coursemates, they were all debited with 1418, except me. i was debited with 1440.50. WHAT??! why did i owe extra 22.50 MYR? i checked and checked and asked around. finally, i sorted it out.
i came back earlier this semester, 5 days. the hostel was not supposed to be opened to students before September 9th. for WM students, they would ask them to go back and come again to register college on 9th, but im from EM, and i left them with no choice. they let me to rent the room for extra 5 days. 4.50 MYR per day. 4.50 x 5 = 22.50. AH IT COMES CLEAR.
for that freaking 22.50 i have to take leave to rush to the Bendahari department this morning and settle all the payment before i could proceed to subject registration. i have 4 subjects next year, inclusive PSM2, and 3 are divided into 2 sections. everybody wants section 1 because the rooms for section 2 are so lousy with always malfunction desktops and air conditioners. the registration started at 8am and Bendahari opens at 930am. left me with no choice, i was dumped alone, separated with my coursemates, im in section 2. T.T
i havent complained about the hot weather and slow campus buses yet lol and here comes another issue again. damn! i need 128 credits to graduate and so far i have already got 113 credits, which left 15 credits for my last semester. the 4 subjects i mentioned above make up only 13. so i have another 2 credits more and faculty set it to be Foreign Language. i did some diggings into school offered foreign language, they usually offered 2 sections of Japanese, 1 section of French and 1 section of Mandarin. you know how much i loathe Japanese and chinese cannot take Mandarin course. again, im left with no choice, French.
okay lah no problem, French. now the problem is, for 1 section, the maximum number of students is restricted to about 40-50 students and the registration starts on February 9th, Sunday. screw the ppl who make Sunday a schooling day next year. foreign language is a hot subject in my school. I have to time race with the whole campus with 20k-30k students for that 40-50 seats in French class. i will not stand a chance for a slot in the class if i do not register the class on the first day of school before 1pm. plus, i have to attend to the Language Academy Faculty counter to register on the spot. meaning I have to register for the class before 1pm on February 9th. this makes me so dead. my flight is on freaking February 10th. LOLOLOLOLOL. the problem now is that if i miss to register for the foreign language class next semester, I WILL HAVE TO EXTEND ONE FREAKING SEMESTER FOR THIS 2 CREDIT HOURS!!!! AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
you may suggest that i can ask help from my WM coursemates to help me to register on the first day of school. haih, the department will not allow students to register the subject except for themselves.
who can save me. please.
Dramatic Week Ahead
Baby in Process
i havent logged in for so long time until i actually hesitated about my password when i logged in just now. lol. password fatigued.
i lead a very busy life now, everybody is busy once they start working because most of the time when they are not asleep, it is dedicated to work and jam on the road. for my case, 11 hours. 11 hours for work and jam, 2 hours for church, 8 hours for sleep, 3 hours for devotion, meal, shower, grooming and hair drying things, those make my 24 hours per day. i hardly have time for myself. :/ dont you just miss your time as a student?
you must be thinking why am i so free now for this blog post lol. because im on medical leave. yeah, sick again. zzz
im working on a project in my company, this is gonna be my first baby. im brewing it with patience and overwhelming thoughts, thats what amateur do, right? lol i have totally no experience in all the programming languages i use now, i hadnt even heard of them before this, so time must be spent on learning.
sneak peek on my expecting.
its time to get back to work again. so sial la, sick till laosai i still have to work.
生病记
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elloowwww! long time no see.
foreword, i have no photos to show you guys but just recent update of myself. yeah who else can i update lol so this post is gonna be worrrrrdyyyyy.
first thing of all is, im sick. so severe that i feel drunk day and night. i go to bed, wake up feeling dizzy and go to bed again. i didnt skip class, because some of the classes, the attendance is compulsory. a lecturer is so strict that if you miss twice of her lecture, she demands you to drop the subject.
i thought i was just another body heated up sickness so i drank some 100 plus. mana tahu! the next day i threw up and diarrhea. i tried to swallow some pills this morning too, and threw up lagi.
i have fever almost every night for 3 days straight, starting on Sunday. lets hope today will be an exception.
very torturing, you know! woke up periodically every 20 minutes feeling hot and pulled the blanket away before dozing off again. and then in the next 20 minutes, woke up because i felt cold. had to hide again in blanket. the process repeated the whole night for 3 freaking days. i really thought i was going crazy.
my coursemates couldnt understand me, sleeping so much even in daytime. frankly i was in bed except for the time that i need to be in class.
and i ate like a kitten. one lunch box, purposely ordered small size, i could eat for the whole day without feeling starved. of course, dropped some weight. in some short pants, i can now go to pee without having to unzip my shorts. hahahahaha so funny, i can read your imagination now!
second is that im quite occupied with internship and FYP at the moment.
i rejected a company and i needed to reset my status in UTM system before i could reapply another company. that took me a week! the lecturers asked us to email them the rejection but they checked email like 3 or 4 days once.
excuse me, dont waste my time.
i found another company here and i was asked for a discussion, he used the word 'discussion' instead of interview. hmm must be a nice guy.
so that is it. if im accepted, ill be in jb for 5 months without going home again.
because of this sickness, i cant afford time to meet up with my supervisor, so FYP is hanged there omg. OMG.
damnit. just realized that i have another 2 programs to code.
randomize things into life
i called my mum just now because yesterday was father's day. lol i always call mum, we sisters always do instead of dad. dad sounds fierce on phone i dont know why, maybe he always sounds so but we just prone to ignoring it, given that he always talk with that funny facial expression. on phone, you see nothing but the voice. plus, he could be taking his nap right now after lunch and if anybody calls, he barks. so i called mum.
my mum is getting a life now, like finally, after she ended her shop business and decided to stay at home. she started that shop when i was about 4 or 5 which means 17 years at least, she poured in her effort. she ended it, and she sounds happy. not long ago, my sister told me that my mum actually requested to drive. she never wanted to drive, never or serious reluctantly when she had no choice. she repelled of being the driver no matter what it took her. but then one day she requested to be one. O.O everybody in the house was so shocked and thrilled. she might need to learn texting one day too.
i feel sick, for days already actually and i dont know how to describe the sickness. everybody urged me to a doctor and when i finally did, the doctor was not in the clinic at the moment. i couldnt wait im a impatient bitch so i left. things work fine just some mucus-y and coughing-y things going on and on in my room. but i feel sick, especially this morning. i woke up at 11 and stumbled into the toilet. i actually sat on that dirty floor because i couldnt bear standing anymore. my face went pale and i was freaked out. I HAVE THIS FUCKING PAPER IN THE AFTERNOON, WHY NOW?! i panicked so i decided to change and go to the college store to grab some 100 plus. passed by office to retrieve jun's parcel and surprisingly and pek-ceking-ly, the store was closed! WHY NOW?! one hour more to go before the paper i should go to bed now :p
another thing is, do you guys still remember the genius Bernard Cheng? he looks my brother, especially when he smiles!
tight tight TIGHT SCHEDULE!
mid term exam is coming so freaking soon. ill be having my first paper this wednesday night, already. what am i still doing here? procrastination! whats funny is that i will be going later to discuss about my taiwan trip with my friends. #TROLLED i should be studying smart now
................................................. ill be like ........
and i did not forget that i have church choir practice this thursday night. Good Friday and Easter Sunday are coming soon too, ill be like .......
and i just remember im one of the leads for praise and worship session for this coming Sunday mass! now, im really crazy. things start to fall apart.
OH LORD! im sick zzz i just received the news that i have p&w practice this Friday night /.\
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my bok hong mo times are uncountable, far more than any normal person on this earth. when i was young, i could bok like once a month at least. im not allergic to anything, not any chemical, not any food but i still bok like its for fun. zzz. itchy die me.
when i grew up, about 17 or 18, the number reduced drastically, i guess its because my antibiotics were *like a boss* by then. but still, there must be at least 3 times in a year. i brought my controlled medicine here to my campus because i scared that i would have a really hard time if it happens here without transport, mummy and super friends. i keep it close, bring it everywhere i go.
but for this semester, i forgot to bring it here. i was like omg what should i do what should i do for the first few hours when i discovered i miss-packed my medicine. luckily nothing happened and i didnt need the medicine, UNTIL TWO NIGHTS BEFORE. wtf. bok till i cannot tahan. i refused to go to pk initially because i thought that was just minor case. but last night, my friend called emergency number == my whole body was covered with red dots, big or small. i rolled on my bed for a night, sweating until my roommate was back from date and found me dead on my bed. nah, just metaphore im alive haha. she said she was excited because she never called emergency before ==
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我总是觉得我够了
我总是觉得肚子饿了就吃 累了就睡
我总是觉得有时候半夜怎样都睡不着也许是好事
我总是觉得自己矮得很有自己
我总是觉得如果现在是时候了 我不会有任何疑惑
我总是觉得我还有明天
我真讨厌生病的自己 偏偏就是我
脸好痛
有时候生病也不错
我的心啊 这次就好好休息休息吧
我是真的只能报喜不报忧吗 独自留完泪了 是时候笑了 :)
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我的数学老师很会骗人下的咯
他说 ‘明天考第四课’ ‘我们明天考第八和第九课’
考考考 考到天上去了啦！
结果给了一大堆我们看不懂 做不来的功课
一定要搞得我们一个两个头都大大的他才爽哦
让你们来看看我们头大的原因吧
1。首先 他要我们自行研究coding 然后把coding打出来 成果必须是像下面那张图片那样
图片只是print screen 因为我不知道要怎样把它从我的software里面upload上网
它是五颜六色的 会转转转的 速度就看你要几快 在coding里面可以改
连找改速度的都找得我半死 那个coding就不能放上来给你们看了 真的是长到不能再长了 T.T
2。做好 研究好 他接下来就开始玩我们了 他要我们把以上的两个图案合并在一起
意思是 我们又要研究那个长得半死的coding 然后再把它们合在一起 过后要把整个图案移到中间
现在不能再三个axes(x-axis, y-axis, x-axis)转了 只能在一个y-axis转 又是个半死 他还说没有弄完别想下课
如你们看到的 我们一组三个人 我, azie, amira 花了2个小时死都把下面的图案给死出来了
你们真该看看她们两个 当做不到的时候 或者是当两个图案大小合不起来的时候 在椅子上气死气到跳舞的那个时刻 真的是笑抱我了 那晚还真的没有吃晚餐
3。精疲力尽 没话说 你们一定以为我们做好以上的功课 老师终于放课后 我们就可以休息休息了
我告诉你 你想得美！
接下来的功课是 做出六个不同的形状给他当assignment
！！！！！！炸到
box, cylinder, sphere, eclipse, cone, torres 有一些还不懂是什么鬼形状呢！
我负责做box, cyliner 下面是我做的box 累死了 比较简单 把之前的coding改改就行了 简单是简单 但是也是要知道该改那里 所以又到了读coding的时候
下个礼拜还有software presentation 要做3D给他看的
又要花时间研究怎样用blender software 做3D了 能够的话 救救我吧
所以阿 当我很久没有更新的时候 请不要怪我 我是真的好忙了 /.\
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囧 9 programming questions to run the programme
囧 friday need to go to faculty for programming certificate
囧 1 personal website
囧 one slide show presentation
囧 one assignment on TITAS
囧 one report on graphical mathematics subject
囧 one network lab - to do the cable thingy
囧 quizesssssssssssss
aiks.
get ready for a picturesque post for the next.
i hope so :p
received this as valentine presentsomething special from someone special :)
happy valentine's day
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things are started to get stuck =| i have barely enough time to sleep. and even when i have the time for that, i find myself cannot fall into sleep. its exaggerating. try it and youll know. mr jack discussed about sleeping apnea and chronic insomnia symptoms in class today. and im so lucky im so free of sleeping apnea disease. yeah, fyi, i do not snore or hiccup when im sleeping. yet, he reckoned i suffer from chronic insomnia. oh yes, dont doubt, chronic. recalling about last night, i started preparation before bed at about 1030pm and climbed onto bed at 11pm. guess when did i fall asleep. surprise 230am. i felt relieved when i finally felt sleepy at 230 after the last glimpse at my phone clock i fell into sleeping, giving thanks. but ROAR, i got really frustrated when i woke up at 4am again. i couldnt fall back to sleep until 6am. and i have class at the freaking 8am! i sat up by the bed and watched my roommate as she slept without being aware that shes actually being watched almost every night zzz. thought i enjoy that? screw you. my body was heated up again, the other words, zhong shu. yeah again. i got myself a heat stroke, a very simple one and expectedly it does not really work. i cannot do it on my own and this is one of the times when i miss my mom /.\ and, i bleed abnormally. it shocked me, severely what the hell is going on with my body because its never that much before. first suspect is that the wound cracked open inside. i dont know i told my mum and got a scold on the phone back =.= but im not going to visit the clinic center here it sucks. and i have reasons not to pay a visit there. my head feels rather heavy now im going to bed earlier again today. so lets just hope i can fall into sleep, nicely and have the greatest night ever. goodnight. and the reason is the scar that you gave me.
