早上梦到了家里刚刚死去的狗 昌珉
梦到爸爸那时发给我的短讯说他心情低落因为他刚刚埋葬了陪伴我们四年的狗
爸爸又怎么不伤心呢 也许比我们任何一个人都舍不得
昌珉最粘爸爸了 每次爸爸妈妈到花园里 昌珉一定抢着坐在他身边 他怀里
每次帮昌珉洗澡是 它总是挣扎 但是如果是爸爸 它一定乖乖地站着给爸爸洗 不用铁链锁
要自己帮已经没有气息的昌珉挖洞 放它进去 再用泥土盖著它 爸爸会是多么的伤心
死亡 可怕吗
它让人永远分离 永远都不能再看到 碰到死去的人 甚至与期待也显得你太傻
就像在港剧《天与地》里 家明死了 但是三十年来 ah yan 是怎么走过来
三十年后 ah yan 还是会放声大哭 因为她永远都不能再感受到家明了
一夜之间 家明就完完全全从她生活中烟消云散 一点都不能再留下
婆婆去世的时候 我没能见她最后一面 二十年来从来没有想过有一天她会离开
后知后觉
最后一次见她 她奄奄一息 痛苦困难地想多吸一口气 胸口每吸一口气都疼痛 那时谁都不再认得
在她去世后 妹妹说大家在葬礼上都哭了 孩子孙子曾孙
在我忙着渐渐长大的同时 我是忘记了父母也在渐渐地老去
我知道每一个人都会有死去的一天 我的父母有一天也会离开 我不断地在想 到了那一天我是不是会后悔我没有时间给我的父母 我是不是还会记得妈妈在我身体虚弱事为我熬的汤 爸爸在我第一次发工资给他一部分钱却被退回还附加一封鼓励的信
我还有多少时间能够给他们 不对 我应该问
我还有什么能够给他们
死亡 可怕吗
我怕的 是我的后知后觉
礼物
in another life.
"At the beginning Katy is seen as an old lady reminiscing the pastime with her lost love, portrayed by Diego Luna. The story progresses with how they have good times dancing and painting together and get matching wing tattoos (which were also shown on the old Katy and the boyfriend).
Towards the end they have a fight. He leaves her and gets into a lethal accident thinking about her. This beautiful yet saddening video ends with the old Katy standing at the cliffside thinking about the one that got away.
Awwwwwww that’s like continuation of Thinking Of You."
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this is gonna be a real packed post. im so lazy to update my days in different separated post so i just dumped all the pictures and stories here.

a very nice movie, i must say. live forever or die trying. im not gonna talk about the synopsis of this movie here because i want you to save it until you watch the movie.
the movie showing time was at 1220 and we were done buying tickets at 11 so we figured that theres a huge need to feed ourselves first before the show.

finally the foods here. yum! nom nom nom. *satisfied* :D
bought some presents too for the camp angelic action. the gifts were.... lame. pilot C4. i know its nothing but i figure that i would be thrilled if i get C4 as a present. hehehhe.
thats all for my day out. update is that im going to camp tomorrow until wednesday.
do not miss me or ill eat you.
AAAAAAMMMMMMMMM!
last but not least, if you care, its about my personal feelings. nothing good is good these few days. is overwhelmed by gloomy clouds for over weeks. and finally i crumpled down when i was acknowledged that my dear little changming has gone back home. as in, the real home.
why must everybody leave in the end? there is no forever talk.
forever is over.
grief
I do this with him every night. I take the urn to bed with me and i talk to him about my day. 16 years, I've been asking him for advices, and, and waiting to hear his laugh, and for him to tell me that he loves me. And he never does. And he never will.
have you ever lost someone so dearly, in peace, that at some certain nights, you find yourself waking up from dreams, soaking wet in cold sweats, weeping silently, because you just had a very wonderful, yet never-going-to-come-true dream about him?
have you ever really stepped into the land in your deepest corner of your heart, felt the pain, broken down and let tears overflow, ever since hes gone like, forever?
even if you know he left for the goods.
to end suffers and to rest in God's arms.
grief.
ever since he left, all i do is cry.
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hello world. it has been about one week plus since i last updated this bloody blog. one week. has it been that long? my chatbox is burst with messages pestering me to update update and update. patrick claimed that my blog was ranked the second among his most visited sites. okay, wow. i really didnt have the american time since i joined the xin chun expo group in my university. well the be more exact, the buzy time started since the first day the school reopened, about this xin chun thing. oh i was elected as vice group leader which brought both storms and rainbows to my university first year life. one comment: my team rocks. from preparation until the event night, im impressed (proud) take a look at these photos.
presenting my group leader, ah leongtypically kl-ian, walks fast, talks fast
not to mention about his stylessss
faint but fun
aw batonithe sao ye from ktr cafe
cute kid, emotion swifts rapidly, smiles a lot
below are the working photos
having mee cup as breakfastwoke up extraordinary early that day for work
aiks those days contribute to my eye bags


HHAHAHAHAHthis photo reminds me of the something ridiculous we did that day
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arranging the small decorations
and the final workthere were lots of this kind of small tanglungs
never deny their existances during cny

drew by a given artist, kong mengfinished the whole painting by himself for one and a half day only
zzz scarily talented





















and lastly, the whole expo group photo :Dextra: my aunt claimed that she received a missed call from my grandma's house phone (my next door). in fact, nobody stays in the house since she left. my daddy heard and saw tap water running one evening. thats what my grandma used to do. old ladies forget. i received a call from someone yesterday afternoon. but it got hanged up once i said hello. all these give me goosebumps even until now, even its daytime now. but if its really her, why should we be scared? she just misses us, but its time to go. again, i miss her. :(
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