Le BFF is 26

Dear Mr. P,

I do not have many friends and I think you are the most gay friend of mine. I have not known you for long, at least not as long as the other two morons in da group, but it seems like we have the most time together. We started from standard text messaging, perhaps to viwawa? to plurk, to WhatsApp, to WeChat, to SnapChat. And the most memorable one is your Nokia E71.

Why do I have such friend, I always question God. He is 185cm tall, freaking fairer than me, very gay and obviously retarded. Most importantly, he seems like he is always free whenever I need him. Dated several girls, and none had ever got jealous of me being intimately contacting him. Over phone, over internet. I failed several friendships and when eventually I asked, half demanded, which was so bad that you shouldnt do, for friends, real friends. I thought of the friends, who would never leave me, who would listen and keep quiet to all my whines. Friends, in whom I could discuss fashion, makeups with, and friends whom we still can be friends after teasing each other. Finally, to add points to the friendship, friends who would train pigeons to shit the words LIMYI IS GODDESS on my ex's car, or to send him boom on my birthday.

When I asked God for friends, I did not expect to get Mr. P.

He kinda fulfills all the criteria but, of course, did not do the last part. But he did invite me to facials, and I feel comfortable lying quarterly naked next to him. As if he will peek, he feels gross to my figure, don't you worry. He took ugly photos of me, and portrayed himself as Dao Ming Si in his phone gallery. Instead of me calling him up in the middle of the night whining about getting dumped by ex, he called me and talked for hours, about how depressed he was, and how helpless he felt about moving on. Pretty gay, isn't it? This is my gay friend.

Dated several girls, but he is single now. Whether or not he is available, contact me for his contact number. You can ask him yourself, but mind you, the conversation will end you up in frustration. :B

I was the last one to wish you a very happy birthday last year. This year, I hope that I can be the first.

01.02.2016

Happy birthday, my deary Kiwi. It is quite cynical I don't have a proper photo of you. Steal here steal there, finally found one with the typical you in. Typical small eyes, typical big show teeth laugh. And also your finger. And your typical giggle.

To me, that is you. One in a million, yeah?

You never fail to catch me. Old times, present times. Good times, bad times.

Don't have much to tell you, don't have much I can actually tell you. Thank you for being there.

Thank you for being just you.

生日快乐，吹蜡烛啦。

生日快乐呀，妮子。每年到了这个节期心情都会兴奋加懊恼。兴奋的是12月了，不知为何，12月总是会让人觉得特别有感觉，是因为圣诞节吧。懊恼的是，不知今年又该送神毛礼物给你啊。我也没送过很多东西给你，也没送过什么特别的，今年是想有些特别的，但是偏偏天时地利人都不合。还有时间吧，科科。

从几年前开始我就在想，要是当初我们选择了和现在不一样的路，我们今天会有什么不同，我们会在哪里，我们会不会在一起。他们都说一段情度过七年以上就很难分开。算一算，我们是刚好七年吗？七年了，我们都在做什么呢？七年，我们大半的时间都是分隔两地。我不觉得我自己是个很好的朋友，没分享到你很多的快乐，很多的眼泪。我们的七年中间也出现了很多人。到最后，留下的却是多了两个废男人。我们都分隔多地，但是感谢科技，到今天我们还是会一回家就马上聚一聚，甚至还没回家就忙着做appointment了。

我们可能很相似，也可能很不一样。相似的是我们都有很多秘密。我不知道我分享了多少你的心，但是我们也从来不去过问，只因为我知道当我们想说的时候，就会说了。大学的日子我的朋友圈都被我烦死了。我说我只有一个女朋友，而且是圈子里最漂亮的女朋友。每当我告诉他们回家我一定和一个人出去，他们想都不必想就知道是妮子你了。大学四年了，他们终于可以在22天后见到你，我也终于可以不必花时间说服他们我有个漂亮的女朋友了，科科。

去年年尾我或许间接的把你推进一个深渊，而且我还是事情过了才知道，真是派写。但是过去一年你也过得不错，找到了想做的事，做着想做的是，最重要的是，多了胖子。终于你妈妈不必通街卖女儿了。你说，胖子对你很好，我很高兴，就像你当初告诉我你很为我高兴一样。我们都感情跌跌撞撞，知道我们曾经痛苦过，知道我们的改变，也莫过于在我们身边七年以上的朋友了。你说不必为你当心，他对你很好，但是我说我们当心的是他不是你，哈哈哈哈哈哈。如果说这句话的是你在旁边可能我们已经死无全尸了吧。科科。

生日快乐，25岁只有一回。不必执着于太多东西，很多事情我们控制不了，只求不伤害人，开开心心地度过在世短短几十年。以后在天家我们有永远的时间可以在一起，我可是充满期待得等待那个永远厚，到时我们是会有多开心，我无法想象。

my big day

it was my birthday yesterday.

after 2 years leaving home and settling down in Johor for my study, this year is my first year of feeling 'it is my birthday!' lol. things like friends treating you special on your birthday.

there is absolutely no different for my sleeping time on my birthday. no delayed bedtime, no delayed wake up time.
i muted my phone on 23rd September night before i went to bed because... you know la haha.
i dont like to be disturbed by continuous text tone when im sleeping ill get boloco.
to prevent from getting boloco on my birthday, i muted the phone.
had a good night sleep.
my friends acutally stayed up late for my birthday but i was sleeping soundly already haha.

among my coursemates, there are 3 september babies.
Jee Cheng (18th September), Hui Shi (20th September) and me (24 September). 

one friday afternoon, we decided to go out for birthday lunch. we ate. lol. just simple lunch at a simple western restaurant.

i was so anti-social when we came to class gathering lol and i wonder why.
i tend to fall silence when we bunch of girls are joined by the guys.
what is happening to me hahaha.
and so, i only took photos of the food.
.____. sorry for that.

Sunday was my pre-birthday day. 

my boyfie initially was not free because he had to attend meetings. 

for that reason, ivy and hui yii decided that they would sacrifice their beautiful Sunday night to cook me a birthday dinner. 

it was Achilles, Ivy's boy, cooking that night. the couple is really good in culinary yum yum. 

i recalled of the slight weeping during my meal prayer. okay i feel loved.

oh thank God for the friends. 

in the end, my boyfie's meeting was cancelled and he gladly joined us at the dinner.

after the meal, the boys tied up boyfie because they prepared birthday prank. 

i was upstairs in Ivy's room when that happened. 

i remembered them posting a photo of him being tied in the corner up to Facebook but i guess they deleted it because i couldnt find it anymore on Facebook. 

i was dumbfounded seeing him tied up when they dragged me downstairs lol. their prank failed because i did not bring any changing clothes. phew.

and then we went to Giant because i said i wanna get some Haagen-Dazs ice cream haha. felt good being the birthday girl.

before i went back home, Ivy gave me my birthday present.

Hada Labo Arbutin Whitening Mask.

she must have peeked through my wardrobe haha. :D

and hui yii gave me this. nature republic lip balm.
this smells so good the scent filled up my room when i first opened it.

and i received a love letter post from jun haha. loved.

my dad posted a lot of pictures on Facebook for me.
he couldnt give me anything so he posted a lot of my favourite food.
my parents even wrote a letter to me.

 he torn down the calendar page of my birthday and wrote me a smexy letter.

find it so coincidence because spotted my name at the right bottom corner!

lol how creative is my parents. havent mentioned about the love.

so this year, they gave me music!

okay, loved again.

now you may wonder what did my boyfie gave me.
he was actually worried about this for quite a period of time.
he intended to give me a cooling sleeping tilam.
but then he knew i cant withstand cold things ill get headache ill whine all day.
then he decided to bring me shopping and bought me present on the spot.
he thought of giving me a pair of Hush Puppies shoes but the model i like is guy's model.
size 7 is like big foot monster on my foot.
then totes. i wont need that much.
then bible. i have already bought mine.
then clothes. weird choices.
then earrings. i dont like the patterns.
then phone case. ive already ordered for us.
then he got so worried and came out with the toilet bowl theory.
the one i posted as Facebook status.
大便都要出来了，马桶还没建好。
hahahahhaha my birthday was just around the corner and he had nothing to give me.
in the end, let me tell you what did he gave me.
he gave me........  nothing. lol
im totally fine with it. he had given me more than i can expect.
awwww goosebumps okay switch topic haha.

i dont used to make birthday resolutions so, ill skip that.
i received a lot of birthday wishes from texts and whatsapp, as well as Facebook.
thank you guys, for making my 22nd birthday so special.
thank you.

mama

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!

life gives you thunder and storm, but there is always a rainbow after them.

my rainbow is where my heart is,

and my heart is where my family is. :]

YAY!

thanks guys! love these to the max!

2nd december

my little xiao jun is finally turning 21 tomorrow. sob sob. finally a lady. sob. please take care of yourself back home. ah you make me wanna go home so much right now. T.T

shes wearing my present OMGGGGG oh yeah!

 

FRIENDS FOREVER! 

by the way, we are tie now, sama old. MUAHAHHAHAH

 

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time really flies. my long long holiday is soon coming to an end.
this holiday is so un-extravaganza. its not that i always have fabulous holiday plans, but this one, i really made it boring when i slacked most of the time away. i dont actually slack too, i dont have many choices, effect of shop worker issue.
jun is leaving this weekend, so is kie yiik and benjamin. urgh i thought they just came back? lolololol
my birthday is in a month's time. OH i just realized i have never celebrated the night with jun #banging head onto the wall
okay why the shame? and now i think back of what did i do on my previous recent birthday nights.
family, alone, in johor. uh ive missed so many chances with her. the wish wont come true too this year, we wont be back to the hometown. im spending the day in kay elle.
awww kinda down right now, thinking of that. am i acting like a lesbian?
i am not. off the confusion, im straight.
my dark circles are getting deeper and deeper. there is nothing i can do about it. ive been having bad night sleep. i dream almost every night and many dreams per night. wept sometimes.
some are entertaining, some ugly. inceptions, even.
anyway, quoted, everything is going to be okay in the end. if its not okay, its not the end. chillax!
im a complainer. always, its in the blood. im trying a change. i should see what i own. my life is not long enough for complaints and grudge. things may surprise you as they surprised me! never stop hoping.
sometimes its really frustrating to know i own a blog. i prone to writing all the negative thoughts on this blog, and i feel so much naked when i know everybody knows my worries and shyts. does this happen to any of you?
ah maybe thats why i changed the url. i only let some come in my first line barrier, my territory.
nah, its late already. gonna need to stay at shop for the whole day again tomorrow. i think ill blog again tomorrow at shop. boredom sucks to the max.
until then, xoxo.

♛

生日快乐
也许你忘了我 但我从来没忘记过你
生日快乐 但愿你真的快乐 :)

♛

happy 56th birthday, daddy. :)

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*with bloodshot eyes*
happy birthday didi
21 years of life makes you a tough man
hope you like the things i gave you
be a good boy
*collapsed*

benji's 20th birthday

so lazy to type. again. so it was benji's birthday party at terminal k. went there. i always dont really like there because the place is full of the smell of smoke. it was fun that night but i was so frigging tired, probably because i laughed too much on patrick's and shau der's actions that night. they are cute :D ricky is funny to make the face like (:D) when i shot him lol. in short, i had a great night love my friends :)

courtesy to benji's photos supply

extra : umm, i feel like eating sushi /.\