掌上明珠

结婚那一天我并没有像其他新娘子一样，坐在那里静静地等待新郎。我跑来跑去，跑到阳台拍我的搞怪照，跑到房间外面偷看CCTV看姐妹怎么整新郎弟兄团，跑到鞋子不到最后一刻都不想穿。新娘子该静静地，大家都告诉我。但是那不是我。如果我静静地，想必萧先生那天迎娶的就可能不会是我。

结婚那一天我也没有像其他新娘子一样，哭花了妆，抱着妈妈说不舍得。太不是我。大家也许都以为我会哭，尽管我是多么冷酷，可是毕竟是个女儿。但是我没有。大家也以为爸爸妈妈会不舍，但是他们那天都很忙，也没有。那一天，我以为会是一个很特别很难忘的一天，但是就那样结束了，我觉得那只是一个有特别节目的一天。不是最特别，不能保证我不会忘记。

那一天就只是成了生命中有有特别节目节日里的其中一天。

我的爸爸妈妈亲手为我盖上了白头纱。我不懂他们心里的感觉，不懂妈妈帮我把白纱从衣套里拿出来那时候的感觉；不懂爸爸一边牵着我步礼堂时心里的感想。释怀，不知所措，开心，伤心，松一口气，还是不舍。在婚礼感谢父母的时候，我也淡淡然然。萧先生感谢我爸爸妈妈生下了我，让他能娶到美娇妻；而我，感谢爸爸妈妈把我生得那么酷，这么潇洒。我一直觉得直到萧先生有哭泣感动的时刻，我或许还未有丝毫掉眼泪的感动。想必，爸爸妈妈也一样。

我们接受一件事情接受得很快。可能会有一丝伤感，但都是匆匆地闪过。该来的总会来，该走的也总会走。我并不出于一个富裕的家庭，但是我从未感到饥饿难耐过。我并不能买东西不看价钱，但是我从未感到无瓦遮头过。我也感谢爸爸妈妈把我养得那么简单。几乎什么都可以吃，不喜欢吃的，勉勉强强还是可以吞下肚。几乎每个晚上不管在哪里都能一觉到天明。几乎什么事情都能有喜乐。简简单单，我很知足。

那一天，我成了别人的妻子，但是，我永远是某些人的掌上明珠。

Facetime-d.

Facetime late at night yesterday with my man. hes busy with his work so i might just as well entertain myself haha.
havent seen him for more than a month and he still looks the same lol what do i expect!
but he claimed that im fatter and fairer. so round he said zzz.
my sister hid behind the camera and constantly shouted a few sentences. he thought i spoke without moving my lips lol!
Facetime-d for a short while. hes busy and i had to sleep already.

im so happy with this man.
OMG GROSS! bye bye.

Les Miserables

i think most of you are quite familiar with Les Miserables, especially after the movie version was launched, like a month ago? i always wanted to watch this, but apparently my social circle in Johor is not interested in this opera musical thingy, which they refused to watch the movie with me. even my eldest sister texted me saying the movie was boring with lots of actors singing only. i was like, WHATTTTT? THAT IS THE BEST PART OF IT! the songs are brilliant, everything is.
i was first introduced to this through school choir, performing this musical performance. that time, there was no movie yet, and i watched the musical concert of Les Miserables, with the help from Jiun Lung, he burnt me DVDs on this concert and once i watched that, i fell in love with it. i watched it over and over again, until my sister could sing along with me the songs haha.
im still searching for the movie to download, and for now, ill show you guys the concert one. so thrilled to find it on YouTube.

there is no subtitles for this video, but i think you dont really need that because they sang so clearly. you can live without the lyrics. every word. clear.
isnt it nice? lol okay im a little bit too obsessed. well its a nice thing to do to kill the leisure time haha.
byebye.

youtube tour

i was going through youtube as i woke up early this morning and theres nothing much i could do lol.
found three songs.

Conor Maynard - Turn Around ft. Ne-yo

i was first introduced to Conor Maynard through the song Can't Say No.

i have no idea how the song got into my phone and one night i had that insomnia i turned on the TTPod apps in my phone, this song flooded in.

kinda catchy the lyrics, i found it to be funny haha.

so the next, next and next insomnia, i tuned to this song.

the new song Turn Around featuring Ne-Yo is so nice to me.

i found myself loving this combination. Ne-Yo is so tasty, yeah i mean the voice, just like Chris Brown.

Hunter Hayes - Wanted

delicious lol.
like his voice, and he plays piano!

Taylor Swift - Begin Again

think everybody is quite familiar with Taylor Swift.

shes like, to me, dating the whole world population to find her Mr. Right =.=

maybe to her, love is like what she sang in this song, 'thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end'
but always, in the end, she 'watched it begin again'

lololololol this is a nice song anyway, hopes!

♛

很多男人，虽然有女友，却依然开着门缝，给追求者留有希望。一个好男人，在有女朋友后，应该像紧锁的门，不管外面美女怎么敲门，都毫不动摇。好男人是不会有暧昧的，因为没给人希望。也不会有前女友纠缠，因为早断的干干净净。所以找男人，就要找能给自己美好，却不给别人留希望的人。

there is always rainbow after thunderstorm.

God, thank you. so much better than many.

im so grateful. so so so grateful.

♛

chatting with old friends makes me miss home so much.
i wanna go home, the epitome of love.

♛

今天跟萧养豪说了那句话
“女人一生人一定会遇到骗子。小骗子骗了她一阵子；大骗子骗了她一辈子。”
他头也不回 眼睛还是盯着电脑做工 说 尽管叫我大骗子吧！

为什么每次拍照出来都看起来像个小弟弟 -.-

一个女子需要的就是那么简单。

我愿意

a few years ago i fell in love with a song 我愿意 by Fay Wong. like totally.
i never understand why because im not always the kind to really into a song for months.
i remember jun told me she couldnt understand why i like the song too because of the lyrics 我无力抗拒 特别是夜里 喔~ 想你到无法呼吸
miss you till cant breathe ah! lololololol

songs come and go and never had one stayed like the song did.
ive long heard it but i re-heard it on a Christmas night back in 2008.
i wept like a baby hearing the lady singing the song up the stage.
 now i know you guys thinking like, what? its just a pop song!
yeah that thought struck me too. but i just cant help.

and then today, this morning, while i was preparing for my praise and worship songs on the coming Sunday, i googled, youtubed the songs which will be sung on Sunday and i came across this youtube video.



and then its like finally.
i understand why. a letter from God, never forget me.

back in 2008, if you guys still remember my creepy past LOL, i fell out of love.
hes just like a marijuana.
i was so miserable that time and i didnt understand how could a boy make me into a zombie, walking, breathing without life.
even Christmas couldnt cheer me up. not a bit.
i could not see, could not hear, could not come up with anything.
was blank.
and today, after ive stood back up, i can see, it is so damn obvious, that God is telling me things.
stop hiding, stop crying, I have something, someone, everything, everyone, better for you.
i couldnt see, i just couldnt that time.

i had a really really really hard time trying to forgive myself for my mistakes to anybody, anything. its even hard to convince myself that God will forgive me for the mistakes.
i knew He certainly would, but its very hard for me to persuade myself that way.
everything was my fault. everything, even the leaf withered and fell down from the tree, its my fault.
._. why did i have that thought?
but its true. i was so tiny that time. seeing things the darkest side. just like a marionette, hanging by the threads dominated by some other people.
and of course, i was away from God, i thought i didnt, but i did without conscious. He didnt leave me but i pushed Him away.
awww bad me.

but its never too late.
ill not say any 'If-s', because if the ifs really do exist, i wont be sitting here blogging right now.
lol did i just say if? haha never mind that.
sad things went on and on and on, ill skip that here, until one day i was on my knees in a camp, telling God : take me fly. this time i wont look back nor carry the past burden with me when youre taking me soar.
and holy, not long after the praying, i swear i can even describe it as flash, i met my boyfie now ._.
haiya, should have made that prayer earlier ma! lol

ive done so many mistakes, so many loopholes in my life, but then,
what do those matter now?

lets listen to the song lagi, my favourite song hehe.

if you think im still not over you yet, you are right. but things are so much different now.

Pa and Ma

gratitude and love.

my big day

it was my birthday yesterday.

after 2 years leaving home and settling down in Johor for my study, this year is my first year of feeling 'it is my birthday!' lol. things like friends treating you special on your birthday.

there is absolutely no different for my sleeping time on my birthday. no delayed bedtime, no delayed wake up time.
i muted my phone on 23rd September night before i went to bed because... you know la haha.
i dont like to be disturbed by continuous text tone when im sleeping ill get boloco.
to prevent from getting boloco on my birthday, i muted the phone.
had a good night sleep.
my friends acutally stayed up late for my birthday but i was sleeping soundly already haha.

among my coursemates, there are 3 september babies.
Jee Cheng (18th September), Hui Shi (20th September) and me (24 September). 

one friday afternoon, we decided to go out for birthday lunch. we ate. lol. just simple lunch at a simple western restaurant.

i was so anti-social when we came to class gathering lol and i wonder why.
i tend to fall silence when we bunch of girls are joined by the guys.
what is happening to me hahaha.
and so, i only took photos of the food.
.____. sorry for that.

Sunday was my pre-birthday day. 

my boyfie initially was not free because he had to attend meetings. 

for that reason, ivy and hui yii decided that they would sacrifice their beautiful Sunday night to cook me a birthday dinner. 

it was Achilles, Ivy's boy, cooking that night. the couple is really good in culinary yum yum. 

i recalled of the slight weeping during my meal prayer. okay i feel loved.

oh thank God for the friends. 

in the end, my boyfie's meeting was cancelled and he gladly joined us at the dinner.

after the meal, the boys tied up boyfie because they prepared birthday prank. 

i was upstairs in Ivy's room when that happened. 

i remembered them posting a photo of him being tied in the corner up to Facebook but i guess they deleted it because i couldnt find it anymore on Facebook. 

i was dumbfounded seeing him tied up when they dragged me downstairs lol. their prank failed because i did not bring any changing clothes. phew.

and then we went to Giant because i said i wanna get some Haagen-Dazs ice cream haha. felt good being the birthday girl.

before i went back home, Ivy gave me my birthday present.

Hada Labo Arbutin Whitening Mask.

she must have peeked through my wardrobe haha. :D

and hui yii gave me this. nature republic lip balm.
this smells so good the scent filled up my room when i first opened it.

and i received a love letter post from jun haha. loved.

my dad posted a lot of pictures on Facebook for me.
he couldnt give me anything so he posted a lot of my favourite food.
my parents even wrote a letter to me.

 he torn down the calendar page of my birthday and wrote me a smexy letter.

find it so coincidence because spotted my name at the right bottom corner!

lol how creative is my parents. havent mentioned about the love.

so this year, they gave me music!

okay, loved again.

now you may wonder what did my boyfie gave me.
he was actually worried about this for quite a period of time.
he intended to give me a cooling sleeping tilam.
but then he knew i cant withstand cold things ill get headache ill whine all day.
then he decided to bring me shopping and bought me present on the spot.
he thought of giving me a pair of Hush Puppies shoes but the model i like is guy's model.
size 7 is like big foot monster on my foot.
then totes. i wont need that much.
then bible. i have already bought mine.
then clothes. weird choices.
then earrings. i dont like the patterns.
then phone case. ive already ordered for us.
then he got so worried and came out with the toilet bowl theory.
the one i posted as Facebook status.
大便都要出来了，马桶还没建好。
hahahahhaha my birthday was just around the corner and he had nothing to give me.
in the end, let me tell you what did he gave me.
he gave me........  nothing. lol
im totally fine with it. he had given me more than i can expect.
awwww goosebumps okay switch topic haha.

i dont used to make birthday resolutions so, ill skip that.
i received a lot of birthday wishes from texts and whatsapp, as well as Facebook.
thank you guys, for making my 22nd birthday so special.
thank you.

Sister

its april fool, 1st april, today. which means my second elder sister, lim hong is flying to Japan tomorrow after her success in persuading my dad, which brutally hates Japan like i do, to pursue her dream of Japanese language in the world-known town, Tokyo. she went back home a week ago, bidding farewell to my parents. it will be after one year until we see her again.
i hope, seriously, she can reduce her weight there. people always say if you wanna lose weight, the most effective way is to stay bloody hell away from home as far as you can. she is very pretty already, if only she could lose some weight i think guys will queue long for her.
next, i hope she can find a super nice Japanese boyfriend there. this is because if she succeeds in doing so, my next Japan trip will be so much cheaper HAHAHAHA. sorry for the selfishness lol. nice mah what, she always wants a foreign spouse hoh.
now, buh-bye fatty. until next time, after one year. ill miss you.

ande and she.

see, you can seldom find a beautiful fat girl.

and then, ..........

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! WTF????!

♛

你很重要 就算你很重 我也要。

Say Love, Lollipop

am quite busy about school and church things. things to share? yeah. we gotta do research proposal and a group's video has actually caught my eyes. things i need to do. grrr.

nice video with my one of the favourite songs. OH I REALLY LOVE THIS!

ticks and tocks

世界上最浪漫的手表，
1天1次的 Kiss ♥

expensive shyt. but me gusta a lot!

YAY!

thanks guys! love these to the max!

♛

我不貪心，也不等待。
我找到感覺對的人，就決定了。
我不喜歡左顧右盼，
我的時間有限，
我想用有限的時間跟另一個人過更好的生活，
而不是用我的生命，
去找一個更好的人。
留在我身邊的，就是最好的。

2nd december

my little xiao jun is finally turning 21 tomorrow. sob sob. finally a lady. sob. please take care of yourself back home. ah you make me wanna go home so much right now. T.T

shes wearing my present OMGGGGG oh yeah!

 

FRIENDS FOREVER! 

by the way, we are tie now, sama old. MUAHAHHAHAH

 

♛

为什么两种爱不能同存？

我不要長生不老

小鬼唱的歌都好好听哦
脸又傻傻的
他在这个MV里最后说的话好感动哦
流泪了 T.T
开玩笑的啦 哈哈 男儿流血不流泪！

im so dead.

incredible J.