Passion

I will be bombarding my blog with a lot of photos of my wedding day. William helped me to take so many nice photos and I think it will be such a waste if I don't upload them somewhere, but I don't feel like creating an album in Facebook and just dump all the photos up to that album. That way, I don't feel people sharing my joy. Maybe I still will be creating an album for that, but I am also going to write blog posts like this one, and the previous one, and the previous previous one, so that you guys can read something about that photo, so that you guys can learn about my life, my friends, my family through these photos.

Reading and writing, reading and writing. It is always been in me that I wanna write. More and more and more. Just sometimes I don't have the leisure time for this. I blog during office hours, often short ones. I enjoy writing, and words attract me so very much I can spend a night reading them. Don't underestimate me, I actually read all of Xiaxue's wordy and lengthy blog posts. Aha.

Found a really really nice and inspiring Christian blog, JarridWilson. Have a sweet time reading. :D

When I feel like writing, I will just write.

And I do hope you guys enjoy.

我容易吗我？！

到这里两个星期了，差不多每一天时间到不是煮饭就是洗衣。快活吗？没工作的日子。是觉得还不错啦，不过时间就那么“咻”一下，没了。无法避免的啦，就算知道该珍惜时间，珍惜也珍惜了，时间还是飞快地从指尖溜走了。留不住。

大家问起在家干嘛勒，我回答洗衣煮饭扫地，大家笑成一团。很奇怪吗。我真的是在家洗衣煮饭扫地嘛。大家都不相信我那么居家吧，人人都看我花瓶一个，当我告诉他们我的生活时，换来总是惊讶的语气。有那么点小小的骄傲吧？惊讶我会喝酒但是从没泡过bar；惊讶我吃少少但是会下厨；惊讶我人小小但是会亲自搬重东西；惊讶我前阵子生病住院但是可以连打两个小时的羽球；惊讶我看似小姐样但是会爬山，还爬得很快。朋友们，是时候多了解了解我了。

今天有人竟然对我说，以为我是叛逆、拒绝下厨型女子，纳尼？！晴天霹雳了一下下。

今天晚了煮午餐，太投入于漫画，漏了时间。下午两点多才煮好。煮太多了，我要养肥一直瘦巴巴的猴子，算是不错了吧我的挑战。

我喜欢下厨，喜欢弄自己喜欢的东西吃。而且，我比较prefer自己一个人霸占整个厨房。有些时候让我不下厨的原因是因为有其他人占了厨房的空间。我，很奇怪吧？我厨艺不精，像个小孩在厨房忙到满身是汗，但是我很开心，很有成就感。我，很难理解吧？别怀疑，我真的喜欢弄东西吃，虽然食物做出来了我不一定会吃，但是我喜欢那个过程，好像生了自己的孩子一样。我不在乎你喜不喜欢我做的食物，我不在乎它好不好吃，但是我喜欢看到自己的成果，挑战新的做法，新的食物。我，很潇洒吧？:B

po了上面的照片给朋友们看，个个都告诉我终于可以嫁了。额哼，额哼，终于是什么意思？还有为什么连接到婚嫁。我说啊，嫁什么呀，谈一辈子的恋爱不好么？我要谈一辈子的恋爱，呵呵。可是小鱼说如果我谈一辈子的恋爱，她就没干儿子，干女儿了。你丫，就这么吧我卖了么？萧男难伺候啊，你又不是不知道。

萧男真的很难伺候，我从没遇过那么蘑菇的男子，千挑万选却选上了。不吃茄子，不吃番茄，不吃意大利面，不吃番茄酱，偏偏都是我最爱吃的。苦瓜汤只喝汤不吃苦瓜，我也不吃苦瓜的啊，难道买苦瓜来煮了汤，把苦瓜丢掉？浪费死了。稍微老了点的菜不吃，过夜的剩菜不吃，早上太多不吃，稍微漏风（受潮，哈哈）的饼干不吃，紫菜不吃，生的没煮过的黄瓜不吃，稍微辣的吃了马上跑厕所，不能喝咖啡，不能太饿，不能太饱，不能太累，不然统统不吃。

你说，我容易吗我？

今天生了闷气，发了张煮了太多的晚餐给萧男，威胁他一定要把菜吃光光。

 我才不管他三七二十一，没吃完自己看着办。照片里番茄炒蛋是我的午餐，没他的份。

下星期起就不常煮了，慢慢怀念吧你！噗！

update

update time again ahaha. felt a little bit guilty for not updating here, a little bit la. i dont have an interesting life, im at home now, enjoying my maybe-last-time holidays. am home for only a month so far, yeah only a month, it feels like a year lol. all i ever did in this one month time are wake up, survive the day, sleep back, and the cycle continues. occasionally i cook, to kill time. most of the time, i sleep. ahahaha. my sister complained that i led an old ppl's life because i go to bed before 12 midnight, sometimes even 11pm. what, thats what you should do too! oh, i watch anime 游戏王 sometimes too ahahahah. an absolute otaku.

it hasnt rained for 2 weeks already, no, not at my place. whats worse, haze. i think forests at Salim there just caught fire, i dont know if somebody set fire to the woods or they just caught fire because of the hot weather. my house is 24 hours windows and doors lock up now, we cannot bear the haze. my eyes sore especially, and i cant breathe!

bad, real bad.

i dont know how much longer this situation is going to last, but lucky for me, i can escape this bad haze in 2 weeks time. lol if the haze is going to last that long. i booked my flight to Johor on 8th August, with my mama. flying there for some personal stuffs. i dont know if im coming back any sooner, or i may just stay until i get a job. most of my coursemates have already got themselves jobs, some will start in August, some in September. im still slacking here, sleeping, playing with my cute dog lol.

so friends, until next time! xoxo.

Hurricane Tuesday - What Gets On My Nerves?

Woah, so long for Hurricane Tuesday!

back to campus and weekends fall on Friday and Saturday. Students are supposed to have school on Sundays (my roomie has, aww pity) but I am in my final semester and the class schedule is as loose as you might wanna slap me lol. I have only two days class, Wednesday and Thursday, excluding the foreign language subject, which falls on Tuesday evening. Don't get me wrong, I am still very busy because of this FYP, I have already mentally killed myself for over thousands times. Just that I don't have to leave room for class.

I am still a little day-lagged or day-advanced as for 20+ years, I had weekends fall on Saturdays and Sundays. Moreover, boyfie works on Sundays so don't blame me for always being a day-lagged or a day-advanced. I always get the feeling it is Tuesday when it is actually only Monday, or it is Friday when it is actually Saturday. lol sowieeee.

As I sat in front of lappy this morning, struggling real hard for my FYP (I am quite stressed about that), I suddenly realized it is Tuesday and I have left this blog quite dead for some while. Yeah and here I am, blogging about what never fails to get on my nerves.

Sometimes you do feel like its something that others do piss you off, despite of the situation that you cannot actually explain why the frustration and aggressiveness. A small thing just gets on the nerve and you just feel like slapping someone.

Well, guilty. I feel that all the time. If you're nodding while reading this, you are not alone. Every now and then, I just feel like killing. Like, why the shit did he/she do that? If killing isn't a crime and I don't have to go to jail for that, I might have already killed 395354306 times.

So, what gets on my nerves?

1. BO JIO

bojio
Hokkien/Teochew
the act of not inviting your friends to go out together.

i cannot explain, either, how much I loathe the term. I still remembered once I snapped impudently, very impudently on my friend (he likes to say bo jio, just for fun, i guess), when I mentioned about my weekend plan to him.

'Don't you f***king say bo jio to me ever again, ever.' I wasn't shouting but I was pointing rudely to him.

To all the bo jio-ers, beware.


2. HASHTAGS
hashtag
 /ˈhæʃˌtæɡ/
a word or a phrase prefixed with the symbol #.

I personally think hash tag is a great invention on any social websites. I did not get the crowd's frustration when hashtag was firstly introduced in Facebook about a couple of months ago, say, it should just stay in Twitter? Nah, I still don't get it. It is very useful, what? Like when i wish to stalk on others' #100happydays mission on Facebook or Instagram or Twitter, it is just a click away.

However, what the photo shows below,

please just hidu my butt. Why do you need to hashtag on every single word? And some tags have no relation to your status at all.


3. that means vs. thats mean
Sometimes I take the easy step too, I typed dont instead of don't, wont instead of won't, so it is actually no big deal of using thats mean. No big deal at all, except for the phrase 'that means' is nothing even closer to any meaning that 'thats mean' carries.

thats mean = short form of That is mean (rude) - without the Apostrophe.
that means = That (a thing) means - it's a grammar thing.

But, yeah, on internet, everything makes sense.

4. CONGRATES
Now, wt* is this.


5. IMA/IMMA
imma
/ˈa(ɪ)mə/
a slang expression, meaning "I am going to be" or "I will be" [something or some activity].

I know, buddy, because some English dramas we watch, the actors don't speak the right grammar too. Some songs as well. I am not particularly good in English too, there were times when I got confused on, for example, when to use had been or have been in the sentence 'I __________ seen'.

That bothers me, still.


These pretty much sum up my pet peeves, of course excluding some road driving manners. Needa use up nights to ceritakan on the issue. (❁´◡`❁)

So, what's yours?

Did you just Google yourself?

it was a boring afternoon at home when my sister popped a question out of the air, have you ever tried to Google yourself? name, nicknames, anything related to yourself, hoping to find something about you over the net?

im charged guilty.

it happened years ago. i did not know why i acted that way but i just did. lol life boredom really kills. people think of anything to kill the time, things that are somehow ridiculous in other people's eyes. it was really many many years ago (if im not mistaken, i blogged about this), then i was on Twitter and saw Barney Stinson tweeted about this matter again. and then only i realized, it was not only me who had done this kind of shit. lol.

now what have i found over the net when i Googled for myself?

i did not find myself, instead, i found another man who has the exactly same name as me! 
check out the URL lol its somehow weird to see the same name as yours being used as a URL of some other people's website.

thats my frigging name lol! of course, out of curiosity and whatsoever, i clicked into his page.

this is the first page that the URL leads you to. apparently hes a guy, Benjamin. i browsed through his profile pages, he seems like a musician. wow.

ill leave you to browse through •Lim Yi Benjamin's Page•, there are a lot of photos of him playing musical instruments, concerts and etm.

it is indeed a fresh feeling knowing that somebody actually shares the exactly same name as me, when my name is already so unique among my social groups (i only have 2 letters when others have 3). thats pretty unique for Malaysia Chinese, or is it? haha.

try google your own name now and see what Google repays you!

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back to blogging again. i intended to blog yesterday but i was up to something last night and didnt really got the time for this. plus, i dont know what should i write here.

craps.

whats so special these days? nothing is to be cerita-kan to you guys because nothing special happened. except from those daily routines, eat sleep and shit. wahahahaha.

oh yes, i went to hiking with my parents yesterday afternoon. my gosh i didnt know whats gotten into me that i had been thinking of going since last Wednesday. i never wanted to go because thats very very very x100000 tiring. plus the sun bites in the afternoon. guess im just too boring.

it turned out fine, though i took shortcut back to the route destination. hahaha. took me 40 minutes. 40 freaking minutes i thought i was gonna die in the woods! the air is so thin that i couldnt breathe normally. i wonder how my folks and the aunts and uncles withstand the thin air in there. most of them completed the whole route, which took approximately one hour and a half. pfff i will die if i chose not to take shortcut back.

im actually quite proud of myself. 40 minutes for amateur and no-exercise person like me. yeah babe.

got fatter too. back to the size before i was sick. not sure about the weight though. anyway, fatter means health is back. *high-five*

Short update

i wanna go traveling so much, as near as maybe Kuching, but its always a problem when it comes to companionship or accommodation. i always feel like im wasting away my holidays. all i ever do at home is to eat, sleep and shit.

wake up every morning at 10, go back to bed again at 1pm after lunch. im like, only awake when it is time to fetch my sister to and from work. damn. when i wake up at 11, ill skip my breakfast and wait until daddy comes back home at 12 something and then we will have lunch together. thats then my mum will start all the naggings until my fatty sister begs me to eat because she cant stand all the naggings, even though they are not addressed to her.

mum is a superwoman in nagging. im not complaining.

i wish i could go to work too, sometimes only lah, to earn a few hundreds bucks but my folks forbid me from doing so. they said its tiring and my body is not capable of the fatigue. they want me to stay at home and grow some meat because im never fat enough for them. when i say never i really mean never. i admit i was a skeleton before, even my boyfie hated to meet me up, but im back to normal shape now, though i still dont understand why the weight wont go up. all clothes start to fit again.

i wont want to go out when im in Sibu during daytime. Sibu is an old town. even the entertainment smells old to me. no nice and affordable food, ridiculously priced boutiques, even supermarkets are boring. not to mention its scorching hot outside. i think ill just stay in.

so now my another added entertainment at home is these arcade games, Diner Dash-es, Cake Mania and etm. wtf and im enjoying it!

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nothing to do at home. no la actually i have some amendments to do for my fyp thesis but im so lazy to touch it right now.
found a website to learn all the web design things and i plan to learn it start right from zero.
good start huh?
all i ever do at home is eat, sleep and shit.
i eat a lot but my mum always thinks that i never have enough. ill soon have tayar because i have supper every night. i shit a lot too. at least once a day, sometimes twice, sometimes thrice. my mum said its a good thing, but i dont think so. lol i write like nobody is reading.
my little sister started her work in Medan Mall about a week ago. i wanted to go to work too, earning, but my dad said NO. hes worried about my health. yeah i still feel tired walking a few rounds upstairs and downstairs, choking and gasping for air like a dog, but im so much fine now.
no photos to post too because the photos i took at home are all nudey, my sister's smexy ass, which if i post them here ill be dead.
so lets post a photo i took before i came back home.

thin meh?! average bah and im fatter now. but why is my head so big pfff.
i look darker too, especially my face, my fingers and my feet. i dont know why only those particular parts are darker while the other remains. maybe its the ghost of the medicines. zzz give back my fairness.

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hey guys, im home!
im so lazy when im at home, because all i wanna do is to lie down look at the ceiling and finally doze off lol.
im so bored right now. folks went to wedding reception and we sisters have nothing to do at home.
sibu is boring but i dont wanna waste time watching movies at home. that should be done when im not at home, in jb.
i wanna taste delicious food but nobody wants to go with me! i eat too much?! lol
even boyfie is so busy that he dares not to sms me even once a day sometimes! outrages. i guess ill just rot at home. dont call me.
ill be starting my internship on September, lasting until the end of January. after that ill be left with only one sem before i graduate. oh time flies!
im still wondering if i should continue for Master. kinda so fed up with examination periods but ill miss time like this.
nothing to update yo. byes.

so true.

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dont know whats happening, i prone to becoming an introvert these days. i used to selca and perhaps upload some quite often, but now i think thats so tiring and i have better things to do zzzzzzzzz what am i thinking. probably you will think that i selca a lot but keep them to myself, no, not one selca picture at all.
secondly is social networking sites. i used to be so active on Facebook, which i updated my status, posted pictures quite often too. now, Facebook is for educational purpose only. deactivating Facebook is a no-no because my classmates share educational news via Facebook. damn.
in real life, i wish to be alone in hostel all the time. im actually quite glad, slightly la, my roommate goes back home after 10am class on Thursday and only comes back on Monday morning, which i have 4 nights alone in room! lol and these two weeks we dont have class on Thursday, meaning that 5 nights!
right, im exposing myself as a zai nv to the world, good gracious!
but i am. sigh.

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came to Johor for about a week already. i just came back and this week, im already in Week 3. goddamnit Time can you move slower?!
i have many things to do but the deadlines are not clear yet so that makes me procrastinate like im still at home.
what i should be worrying about is my Final Year Project (FYP) and Internship. but what the hell am i doing here lol
i hate my timetable for this semester, too much free time HAIH!
class from Monday to Thursday 10am only. Wednesday is from 8am to 11am. HAIH! so free HAIH!
dont wanna bore you guys with my HAIH timetable liao hahaha.

i went to bintangor when i was still home.

went to visit YangHow's grandma.

two big head prawns as big as my palms. eat till tu hek.

and i finally got my Siswa Card. not much use anyway.

got my BB1M too! so excited.

but i heard that in Popular Bookstore, 80% must be spent on books.

grudges heard, doesnt affect me anyway, i intend to shop for books initially.
got my result slip too. #yeah

lastly, im the 第一批老去的90后.

晚婚的事情!

okay lo, ill get married next year la hahahhaha.

红彤彤

我的圣经不见了
怎么办！zzz
啃了一整天的面包 饱到像头牛
嘴巴干干 头脑晕晕 我的脸像红彤彤的太阳

你还记得 两年前的今天么

夜夜笙歌

我 还心痛吗 那一窜曾经和 曾经

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time really flies. my long long holiday is soon coming to an end.
this holiday is so un-extravaganza. its not that i always have fabulous holiday plans, but this one, i really made it boring when i slacked most of the time away. i dont actually slack too, i dont have many choices, effect of shop worker issue.
jun is leaving this weekend, so is kie yiik and benjamin. urgh i thought they just came back? lolololol
my birthday is in a month's time. OH i just realized i have never celebrated the night with jun #banging head onto the wall
okay why the shame? and now i think back of what did i do on my previous recent birthday nights.
family, alone, in johor. uh ive missed so many chances with her. the wish wont come true too this year, we wont be back to the hometown. im spending the day in kay elle.
awww kinda down right now, thinking of that. am i acting like a lesbian?
i am not. off the confusion, im straight.
my dark circles are getting deeper and deeper. there is nothing i can do about it. ive been having bad night sleep. i dream almost every night and many dreams per night. wept sometimes.
some are entertaining, some ugly. inceptions, even.
anyway, quoted, everything is going to be okay in the end. if its not okay, its not the end. chillax!
im a complainer. always, its in the blood. im trying a change. i should see what i own. my life is not long enough for complaints and grudge. things may surprise you as they surprised me! never stop hoping.
sometimes its really frustrating to know i own a blog. i prone to writing all the negative thoughts on this blog, and i feel so much naked when i know everybody knows my worries and shyts. does this happen to any of you?
ah maybe thats why i changed the url. i only let some come in my first line barrier, my territory.
nah, its late already. gonna need to stay at shop for the whole day again tomorrow. i think ill blog again tomorrow at shop. boredom sucks to the max.
until then, xoxo.

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i went out with jun for the whole afternoon yesterday.
what did we do? lunch and sing k. typical saturday.
somebody mentioned about me being a lesbo for spending the whole afternoon with her. the main point is that im the only one with the lesbo thought but not her, because she got alvin to prove it wrong, and just because i dont have a boyfriend to convince him that im straight!
wtf haha. its not like i got many such chances as yesterday.
aw im gonna miss her so much after leaving for jb soon.
after the party time, i basically died. i didnt move at all on the bed until my sister came in knocking, asking me to send her for her date. it was still early so we went parkson guardian, to kill the time.

from the right, the box, containing 5 green packs of mask on the most left, the free 2 packs and the contain of the box.
and then i came across this.
actually jun and i were already there the previous night and i was quite moved to buy this already.
okay fine, VERY moved.
as always, it is a bad idea to turn back to what moves you after you spend all your energy trying to surpress the feelings that its really worthy to have it bought.
i bought it, RM20++ for 7 pieces, including the 2 free packs. i have always been very fond of 我的美丽日记masks, so it wasnt really hard when i paid for the product.
CHEAP! :D
and then i went home with my prize and baked some honey cornflakes. delicious! but i forgot to snap some photos gahahhaha.
im leaving for jb again very soon, about half month time, oh wait, omg its shorter than half month! godamit. i got a lot of things yet to buy and i dont really have time to do the shopping.
yeah i have the bloody time for blogging and baking but i dont have it for stocking. HAHAHAHHAHAH. typical lazy bum yeah.
/.\ why the long post again? i guess thats it. xoxo.

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这个女子真是找死

不过 笑死我了 BAHAHAHAHAHHA

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要还是不要呢？
我长大了，那只是我一个人的一个决定。

宅女

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