Update

im like a zombie now, rushing my work this and that. really, now i finally get the feeling of yanghow's saying, da bian dou mei you shi jian le. damn. i adjusted my bedtime from before 11pm to now, averagely, after 2am. i cant do this any longer because im an old lady. im so tired but i just cant make myself doing work, stressing myself out for the whole 24/7 cycle. that is unhealthy and i dont like being unhealthy mentally, especially.

deadline of first thesis submission is near and i didnt realize it was that near until last week, when my supervisor reviewed on the dates, we need to pass up first submission next Sunday. what makes the news is that i have not even started on my Abstract of the thesis yet. yeah i know, YAY. we didnt really realize it was that soon. plus, ive scheduled myself to be in KL next weekend. lol. work hard, play harder. i changed algorithms during coding implementation so i cant use the draft i drafted two semesters ago. again, YAY.

i initially thought maybe, just maybe, i could take a leave for church choir tonight but then i realized its Good Friday tomorrow and skipping choir tonight means i cant perform tomorrow then. we have rules. i need to go.

coursemates are rushing too and they are more stressed out than i am. and, i dont understand why. so far as i know they are doing well, they have nice results, graphs, tables everything while i am left with pieces here and there. but they are stressing out too, maybe theres something i missed. they go really aggressive these days, get flared up quite easily compared to the other days and some of them are in the period of time when Aunty Red is visiting in a few days time. careful, while you talk. you can hear shoutings and you will know someone just got shot.

gotta meet with supervisor again later at 230pm and when it ends, its already time to prepare for choir. oh Thursday, what a day.

just a short update before i MIA for a very long time. i feel like its dying here.
Au revoir.