Hurricane Tuesday

lets have some thoughts about life today.

as i was lying on the bed last night, thoughts struck. as always. time passed. my 2 months holiday is coming to an end so soon, as in about a month time. lol it may seem long to you, but trust me, it seems to me as if i just got off the plane yesterday, ready to enjoy my long long holiday.

so is the time of my life. i was 10, dreaming of the day to be 15. i was 15, hoping the time would turn faster so i could celebrate my break free day on 18th birthday. obnoxious and greedy. and now im 22, strictly speaking 23, to realize no matter what i do, i cant hold back time.

i started to hope for slower moving time immediately the moment i turned 18. i started to say i feel old, started to say i should stop having the childish manners. and most importantly, i started to cherish, to appreciate every second i live each day. so i fell in love, fell out of love again, went to college, made mistakes, dreamt really big that they were mostly impossible to achieve. i wasted a lot of time. waste time of dreaming instead of pursuing. now, maybe you will wonder why should time be wasted on things like those? come to think of it again, what should time be wasted on then?

you prone to saying youre old as you grow up, i used to say that too, but i stop saying so now. dont deny me, i am still young, very very young. i havent even got off the first 25 years in my life! whats gotten into me that i keep telling myself that im old, when i should be enjoying the best time of my life? i am young and ready to make mistakes. why should i spend time of feeling or saying myself old, when all the ladies are envious of me being 23?

if i were to have daughters in the future, ill be so envious of them in their 20s. so young, so energetic, so prone to mistakes, so dangerous. ill still be envious because by that time, i will be a 50-year-old mama. thats so much different compared to a 20s young lady. no matter how i say my heart doesnt age, i do age.

time is a scary thing. it slips without you knowing it and when you realize that, its already long gone. theres nothing you can do to get it back. even if you already realized its leaving, there is again nothing you can do to stop it from getting away. something you cannot control.

well, since time is going to be wasted way anyway, whats your bet for your time to be wasted on?