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Whenever that im sad, i will always try to force out a smile, on my own. Its a silly smile, obviously faking it if you see me doing one. I do that because i want to forget that im sad and i want to believe that smiling will do a great help. I never succeed once. Maybe Im just trying to frame myself. I smile, i feel sad-er. I smile broader, i feel sad-er more. Until im done trying, until i fall silence. Ppl are not stupid. Boyfie is not stupid. I cant force a smile, i fail to frame myself, so i frame others. Im tired, im just always tired. And they believe.
Screw emotions, screw hope.
If you ever hear me saying im tired with indifference poker face and tone, its either im really tired, or, im sad and you are the exact reason behind it.