21092013

hi. yeah i know i missed out a lot of updates here but life is really busy now. ive started my internship and that company is giving real great learning opportunity to newbies like me. yes, it is tough but it really provides assistance down the road to becoming a programmer.

i start my work on Monday last week, which i reluctantly attended to the company because it is far from campus and i need to wake up extra early for that. now, dont you think my internship is the same as the others, mostly others, i mean. first day of work and i feel like crying home to mama.

this is the case. most companies in my area as a programmers, as far as i know among my coursemates, they did not torture trainees at the first day of work. they maybe asked the newcomers to download, install and play with the software programs, which the companies use mainly when they do their work. some were asked to watch tutorial videos and those were all the things to be done at the first week. mine, at the first freaking day, they gave me a coding of the company programs, was asked to study on my own and to code straight away. wtf y'all know we learn shits in university. more to come, theres a test on Friday. evaluation test, attended by all the ppl in a meeting room and you gotta present your system, coded on your own.

i was stressed. if you know me well, i never really got bothered by anything happened around me. but this time this is the serious shit. i was freaking stressed and wasnt in good mood for a few days at the beginning. my boyfie freaked out seeing me acting so bizzare-ly. i couldnt produce any shit. not a phrase of coding. i was unhappy. very very unhappy. it took me frigging 3 days to get passed over the feelings that i suck. to screw all the stress back to hell hole. im back to a see-and-forget girl again.

seniors are all good. they warned me about the evaluation wont be easy and there hadnt been anyone whos gotten above 50 marks, when they saw me showing poker face about them telling me the evaluation things.

i was really slow and it took me days to finally figure out a little out of a lump. those days i used to complete a single online form, i think i would die. and there came the evaluation day. the topic given was a system to sell phones. i started to code the system on 9am until 5pm, times up. wtf if Facebook can be produced in those 8 hours. i completed the very basic things, had my ideas on the system and i was ready to go. surprisingly, i got 30 marks averagely. marked by 6 ppl, ranged between 20-40. i was satisfied. they are all angels lol.

two weeks passed, and one conclusion. now Fridays really feel different to me now. Friday=Flyday.

i wont have so much time here anymore, since i need to balance my time out between work, church, sports and my own space. you wont see me here often, i guess, but ill try my best. after all, i need some rest sometimes.

today is Saturday. ill see you again.