Random

i have another paper tomorrow but im not in the mood for that.
yeah i posted a status in Facebook, 为什么没看过别人po好有心情读书的？ because seriously i have never read anything about anyone feeling so good because he just had the perfect study session.
i guess nobody likes studying, but i constantly receive comments from working people that they envy us because all we students do are just studying and taking tests. thats all.
enjoy life besides the three weeks examination week, including study week.

well drop that. the purpose i blog today is because, i wish somebody can speak english to me, constanly.
i think i slurred relatively well, with a little bit of Americano and English accent combined. i watch a lot of English movies, and i recite when i read English books. i thought everybody did that and i was no special of any kind.
i did not know i could speak English until i was 16, when Madam Maria put me into a public speaking competition. she sensed me lack of confidence, i reckon, and put up a record of me practising the speech. i was amazed, is that me? lol. 6 minutes of speech and i sounded like an ABC.
i put the competition low. i felt awkward because i had never gone to any competition and had never really got the attention.
but somehow, my classmates started to pay attention to me because if im not mistaken, i got full marks for the English Oral test in school.
awkward, i still remember Dennis suggesting me to communicate in English with Ruby. whaaaatttttt? ignored him by the way haha.

things got really low and when i came into university, there were a lot of presentations in the past semesters. i received compliments, and i was happy for them.
there was this time when a random Egyptian approached me in the car park, complimenting on English speaking tone or whatever.
'for years im in this faculty and ive never heard anybody speaking such English like you!'
awkward! i feel him being hyperbolic. he was my classmate in a subject for a semester.

of course, im happy with the compliments, but i just feel that im not actually quite there yet.
like if theres a person who can speak so fluently in English, the first impression will not be bad. thats beneficial in workplace. and i wish i can be so.
i realize i slip tongue always, like how i slipped several times during my final year project presentation half month ago.
and i guess, that requires practising everyday. so i recite more and more, when im alone in my room reading story books.
perfectionism.
so i wish for somebody to practise with, but i think ill feel awkward speaking English to ppl i know. GAHAHAHHAHA. i think, unless you were once in the class, which requires presentations, with me, my friends have never heard me speaking in English.
are you one of them?
bye bye.