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time really flies. my long long holiday is soon coming to an end.
this holiday is so un-extravaganza. its not that i always have fabulous holiday plans, but this one, i really made it boring when i slacked most of the time away. i dont actually slack too, i dont have many choices, effect of shop worker issue.
jun is leaving this weekend, so is kie yiik and benjamin. urgh i thought they just came back? lolololol
my birthday is in a month's time. OH i just realized i have never celebrated the night with jun #banging head onto the wall
okay why the shame? and now i think back of what did i do on my previous recent birthday nights.
family, alone, in johor. uh ive missed so many chances with her. the wish wont come true too this year, we wont be back to the hometown. im spending the day in kay elle.
awww kinda down right now, thinking of that. am i acting like a lesbian?
i am not. off the confusion, im straight.
my dark circles are getting deeper and deeper. there is nothing i can do about it. ive been having bad night sleep. i dream almost every night and many dreams per night. wept sometimes.
some are entertaining, some ugly. inceptions, even.
anyway, quoted, everything is going to be okay in the end. if its not okay, its not the end. chillax!
im a complainer. always, its in the blood. im trying a change. i should see what i own. my life is not long enough for complaints and grudge. things may surprise you as they surprised me! never stop hoping.
sometimes its really frustrating to know i own a blog. i prone to writing all the negative thoughts on this blog, and i feel so much naked when i know everybody knows my worries and shyts. does this happen to any of you?
ah maybe thats why i changed the url. i only let some come in my first line barrier, my territory.
nah, its late already. gonna need to stay at shop for the whole day again tomorrow. i think ill blog again tomorrow at shop. boredom sucks to the max.
until then, xoxo.