grief

I do this with him every night. I take the urn to bed with me and i talk to him about my day. 16 years, I've been asking him for advices, and, and waiting to hear his laugh, and for him to tell me that he loves me. And he never does. And he never will.

-- Mrs. Hudson, Glee

have you ever lost someone so dearly, in peace, that at some certain nights, you find yourself waking up from dreams, soaking wet in cold sweats, weeping silently, because you just had a very wonderful, yet never-going-to-come-true dream about him?
have you ever really stepped into the land in your deepest corner of your heart, felt the pain, broken down and let tears overflow, ever since hes gone like, forever?
even if you know he left for the goods.
to end suffers and to rest in God's arms.
grief.
ever since he left, all i do is cry.