Shouts

this fucking streamyx has pissed me off for days (or maybe weeks) until now it finally works like it should. take the finger streamyx! my dad called the tmnet for thousands of times. the worker pissed him off too that he threw the phone off right at the face. oh yeah dad. nevermind lah its all done. and its back to me. =D
aw result is announced. mine? i personally dont think it worths any applause and frankly, im rather disappointed of it. i thought i was quite confident? fuck it all. its not considerably good in my eyes. in fact, its BAD. somehow its pretty well done to some of you. yeah it is, at least i failed none. =D because you know what? i know the reason why im not blessed this time like i used to be. and maybe, i was meant to fail all. but i didnt, so yeah! give me five?
right after the result, courses. grahhh you fellas know im the laziest person in this universe that i hope everything to come naturally to me. yes some of them do, but not this time. like ching ping said, 'you need to make so many so much decisions that even your parents may not able to spare you their helping hands, because the future is in your hands, though sometimes stands on the chance', i have to figured out the skanky 8 choices of courses ALL BY MY BLOODY SELF. alright ill take it because its mine to take. be ready ill rock your world XD
im going to leave home soon. as soon as this june. i always know its always there but never really thought it would R.E.A.L.L.Y. happen this way. i thought i would be cool, because nothing HERE i cant have it THERE. but now, darn, im going for a new life. im gonna miss my blanket. i love it so much that i think its hard for me to fall asleep without it. my family, they wont be there anymore. my friends, its the most heart-breaking part. and my babe, its threatening. but still, its dream-pursueing time. let go, break free =) i can do so much better, cant i?
the hot weather here is challening my health. really i cant stay cool in hot days. my body tells me i cant. most of the time, you all dont know, im having severe headache. im forcing my mind to focus on others so as to forget the pain. but you will know after experiencing my situation, its hysterical. im just like a marionette and the hot weather is pulling the threads, playing on my health. darn you, get lost. im indomitable.

i feel complicated after the result. its an inexorable process. im determined to eradicate the pessimistic thought in my mind but that doesnt mean im way too gay to be regretful on myself. and im still in the gloom. dont judge me before you know me. i dont think you need to know the struggle but please dont press me against the cliff. im weary enough to withstand much more. anyway, a dollop of warmth fills the heart when you all show me the smiles, thanks =3= after all the laughters, when the light comes down, i wonder, how can i ever become so obnoxious? still, darn it.